I haven’t written in a while, so this is a post for the sake of posting. Let’s see what flows from my head; maybe I should find something to piss me off – that always works 😉

Ah I’ve thought of something. Time…

I’m sitting with a strange situation in my mind. I’m currently working on a ton of green screen footage and it’s turning out OK. Really it isn’t bad but I know it could be better. Then on the other hand my deadline is looming, I’ve decided to settle for what I’ve got for the sake of finishing. But here’s my problem – could I have done better given the time I’ve had? Could I?? I don’t know; it’s entirely possible that I’m missing some simple step that could make things better. I could easily blame the footage; for a lot of the shots I wasn’t on set and the green is all over the place. I now have to crunch the matt so much I lose fine details and that upsets me. I know what to do to fix it but I don’t have the time. And it’s not like I have a week to do a single shot, I’ve got 62 shots to do in four days.

My biggest problem is my idealism and my perception of the “real industry” out there that I somehow don’t feel a part of.  I’ve seen some amazing local stuff done by a team of 25 people in three months and for some reason I still feel bad that my one week project all on my own can’t compete. In between that I’ve still got to make templates, fix show databases, and convert files…

I should stop bitching and make a change. I am the master of my own destiny. I can’t keep having little pity parties for myself and blaming production for my lack of involvement on set and that I can’t split myself into three people. So bottom line (And I read this on some stupid Facebook post) is I should sit down, decide what I want, and make a plan.